An Appointment With Lived

To be around those that are inspired, those that truly have passion and live for only one thing is a beautiful thing.

Having watched "Man On Wire" just this past hour was life changing. Not in the sense that it would be something that was an educational experience, it was spiritual.

People don't have passion anymore. Passion is something you like, not something you live for forsaking everything else. Christians have no passion they live in their safe little clubs scattered far and wide. There is no danger... no excitement.

A life of safety is a life not lived. Safety takes away the possibilities to challenge which most times removes the chance to change society in any sort of large and productive way.

Through Phillipe's story I got to peer into a world filled with poetry. A life spent in the pursuit of heaven ---ironically.

Although Phillipe eventually left to love of his youth after reaching his stardom I still clung to what I experienced in the rush of his story. He never told his story you experienced his story.

I will have to purchase that soundtrack. Hopefully it will remind me of how desensitized we have become to the pounding of the world. Hopefully it will inspire me to go past what is normal, past what is expected, past what I want and into what God has for me.

It was as if Phillipe's mad ambition was likened unto our (from our earliest remembrances) being told what we could or could not do. No no! That's dangerous! No no! That'll hurt yourself!

Hopefully by surrounding myself with the stories of those that have lived I too can also live and realize the potential of a life. Life simply is the action of living... and who does that anymore?

...Change...

Life change.

Usually I welcome change ---both in my pocket and my life. It's that fresh page or that recent challenge that makes the day important and significant to me. How can I continue positive change? How can I continually grow, learn and thrive where I'm planted?

This is why mornings are especially perfect in my eyes. The possibilities for anything and/or everything to go totally right... then again sometimes they go decidedly in the opposite direction. How can I combat the ensuing feeling of bleh?

Sometimes all it takes is a few rounds of me romping around to feel-good tunes. Other times... I need a community. I feel like the "village" that is supposedly necessary in raising offspring can also play a large role in the later years of that individual. All that and a 12 oz. americano, the latest and surprisingly greatest in caffeine intake.

Hmmm...

But anyways, this change I spoke of is definitely redefining my relationship with my former boyfriend. DEFINITELY.

Why the enunciation? Why the fear of change? Why the sudden onslaught of anti-I-am-woman-hear-me-roar-ness?

Well.... For one the relationship lasted two and a half years and for two it was my first. There was just a need for refocusing in our lives. Others had never been our priority. WE was the priority. Our selfishness was made more and more evident until it was no longer just in the background. The spotlight was on and God was no-where in sight. He was always THERE of course, but we had never made Him the center of our lives.

Change. Refocusing. Learning to love like our Creator does. Jesus was all about love. God = Love.

That's all. I am definitely still working through this and relearning how to chat it up with you folks. A few months off and I'm kinda... technologically obese. Hence the hamster on the wheel... he's not working for nothing! He's got purpose in his incessant running!

I am that hamster.

Peace peeps!